relaxing

Too hot here but travelling in this place is like going to a living museum. Every angle is a picture.

I've been a good girl so nothing happened after the warning the other day :)

I must be bad in writing?

Two weeks ago I took IELTS to satisfy the language requirement of a postgraduate degree program I've applied for.

The requirement is an overall of 7.5 out of 9.0 with a subscore of no less than 6.5.

I thought it'd be easy.

Just now I checked my results...

Listening 8.5
Reading 9.0
Writing 7.0 ...phew... barely "passed"
Speaking 9.0

I thought the writing was easy. At least much easier than CFA or any exam I have taken.

"More than enough", my husband said to me with a smile.

But I'm not happy. I don't know why I got only 7.0 for writing. I thought.I did well.

Then he said it takes a bit of luck to get a good score in an exam.

Hm... I dunno.

I think he was trying to make me FEEL better cos there's nothing wrong but I was trying to THINK about why my writing score was that low.

Sorry you've got married to a perfectionist :P

warning spanks

The trip is so far so good.

My husband said I've been a good girl, except that he's not happy I never used my German even in a party full of Germans in his hometown.

But I don't have enough words to express myself.

He said I should have said at least thank you in German. At least I should have tried.

True.

So he said I need one warning spanking and took me to a study.

Closed the door and all the windows, then the moment came.

5 hand spanks on my butt.

Not that painful but I'll definitely try to use the language.

Tschüss!

here we are...

Germany :) it's funny to look around with my 3-year-old German. I've just seen an ad. I know the word "jetzt" means now, but now what? I've no clue. At the restaurant my husband talked to the waiter. I heard "ein bisschen" (a little bit), but ein bisschen what? Well, keine ahnung (no idea).

It's funny I just follow him and look at this city from a different perspective.

going away :)

After completing all those exams and projects at work, my husband and I are going away for three weeks :)

I still don't know where our destination will be, but he said I can use my 3-year-old German there.

Germany? Switzerland? Belgium?

Can't wait.

born to be good at exams

It's actually quite fun to go to an English exam. This time it's IELTS, cos I need it for the admission to a postgraduate degree course.

My husband didn't give me any pressure, cos I only need an average of 7.5 out of 9 for the admission but my practice tests seemed to suggest that I can get 8.0 to 9.0.

So I just had some fun.

Most of candidates seem to be students. Some of them seem to know each other.

The one-to-one speaking test was especially fun.

Examiner: Do you work or study?
Me: I wish I were a student.

The examiner looked a bit surprised.

Then we had a conversation on a topic which I cannot disclose here. It was just like chatting.

The second part of the test was a 1-minute impromptu, which I love doing! The topic was not an easy one like "describe your hometown" or a festival, a concert, a book that you have read or anything like that, but it's related to an area which I explored quite a bit in the last summer. I can keep talking about it for 1 hour hehe. Please call me a lucky girl :)

My husband kidded and said if I can get straight 9 for IELTS I should think about starting some online tutorials to teach people how to pass the test... lol

Anyway I still think it's cool to be a native English speaker like my husband. There's something missing in my language no matter how well I do in English exams.

I guess you'd probably agree.

british school 18 years ago = german school 50 years ago???

YouTube has suggested a related video to me: School 50 years ago

I expected something totally different from my concept of school, but I am surprised. It has quite a lot in common with my boarding school experience in England almost 15 years ago!

We had uniform in probably the same materials (just a different design, and with a tie). We had to tie our hair (no need to braid). We had to wear knee high socks in winter. We were not allowed to wear accessories or make-up. We were not allowed to smoke... so many "have to" and "not allowed"...

Then there was this headmistress' monthly room inspection in my first year in secondary school... And students being punished to do some chores in school (I was sent to the laundry department with my friend to help the staff fold the ironed school uniform for 1 hour after school every day for one week)...

It just brings me back to my old times. I didn't realize school was that tough.

Of course school lunch was different, and teachers were more encouraging than in these clips. But still, the male teacher was a bit like the discipline mistress in my school when we did something bad.

Well, I only understand about 10% of the German in the clip, but it's quite easy to follow what they were doing, probably because English school education (at least my school) was quite similar to that.

um... actually the teens seemed to be more active and spontaneous when they were filmed in a normal situation. They looked quite anxious in that school, but I guess the producer wanted to make the contrast more dramatic and that's why they called it "die Harte Schule"?

I think the programme is quite interesting even if you don't quite understand German like me. If you do, then maybe you'll like it a lot.

When school had physical punishment...

I grew up in a few countries across different continents. Except for Singapore, where I studied Grade 5 and 6, all the schools I went to had corporal punishment prohibited. I have never seen any physical punishment at school my whole life.

Since I'm learning elementary German, my husband often sends me clips with easy German. Today he shared one with me which is somehow related to this blog:

It is a simulation of a German school 100 years ago. I don't understand most of the things said, but it's easy to tell what they were doing.

My husband once told me when he went to lower primary school in Germany, young teachers never hit kids, but some old teachers brought a stick to class. I had no idea what he was talking about and what the stick was for, but now I understand.

luckily no punishment

I did something which my husband told me not to.

He noticed that and immediately came over pulled down my pants and panties, grabbed my hands and...

In just a few seconds I was in almost exactly the same situation as this kid.

I leaned closer to my husband and looked at him straight into the eyes and said sorry, sincerely.

Then he gave me one smack on my bottom.

"You don't want to get more of this, do you?"

No, definitely not.

But I didn't say anything. Just hugged my husband deeply and buried my head in his arms.



With my finger, I "wrote" I, ♥, U on his back, one by one.

He said he loves me too :)

"Now be a good girl" he said.

motivated

This post is not about punishment. I think I did well in today's six hour exam, and I feel like I have overcome a huge challenge --- until I watched this.

A touching, amazing, mesmerizing performance that I haven't seen for a while.

All my challenges now seem to be really nothing. 

Enjoy!

5 most feared non-spanking punishment

My husband doesn't only spank me. He uses a variety of punishments.

#5 copying lines

Usually 50-100 times on a single line paper. Sometimes he asks me to write with my left hand to make it hard to write quickly.

If my handwriting is not tidy, he might ask me to write again. That's the most scary part.

#4 lectured in public

This has happened a few times. Most of the time I get scolded at home. Once it was really serious I was told to stop in the middle of the street and got lectured by my husband. Somehow it reminds me of the little Prince George being told off by Kate at her sister's wedding.

#3 ear pulling

My husband does not only pull. Sometimes he also twists my ear, which can make me scream.

#2 standing pulling my own ears

Like I've said, this punishment is crazy. Basically it's just holding both of my ears with my thumb and index finger with my arm raised so that my arm and forearm makes an angle of 30 degrees. It looks effortless, and it is --- for the first 2 to 3 minutes. 5 minutes later you'll start feeling something, and 10 minutes is like torture to me. Anyone will become a good girl in less than 10 minutes.

This:

Different from the following pose that can be seen in Bollywood movies:

I had never been asked to stand holding my ears until I met my husband. At first I thought the strange pose is just meant for humiliation, but it's 100 times more tiring than "hands on the head".

I have no idea how my husband has learnt about this punishment, and I never want to bring up this topic in front of him.

#1 kneeling in front of a mirror

Humiliating and tiring, cos my husband didn't let me sit on my legs. To make life harder, my husband once asked me to hold a heavy bible above my head when I was kneeling. That 15 mins felt like forever.


There are other types of punishment like having my privilege taken away. No tv, no fb, no snacks, no coffee, no talking for 1 hour etc. But they are not as scary as the five types of punishment above.

what a writing topic...

Next Mon I'll need to take the IELTS English exam, just to satisfy the language requirements of a study programme I've applied for.

The requirement is just 7.5 out of 9. I guess I should be fine but still want to get better prepared, especially writing.

60 mins to write a short data analysis and a short argumentative essay.

So I opened a practice book and turned to Test 1.

The topic of the argumentative essay makes me totally speechless.

Not funny to somebody who was just punished last night :(

If you just replace "children" with "wives" or "girls"; "parents and teachers" with "husband"...

there are always surprises

My husband suddenly came home. 3:30am. I was still awake watching tv shows on Netflix. Not sleeping. Not working. Not studying.

He didn't even need to ask me what happened.

#1 staying up this late is not healthy. #2 when we facetimed in the afternoon I promised to go to bed by 11:30.

"Come here", my husband said.

He didn't even need to tell me what he's going to do.

I removed my panties. My husband put me across his knee and lifted my skirt up.

I'm sure you can tell what happened next.

It's my bad :(

homework when my husband is away

My husband has assigned homework, because I've recently learnt perfect tense in my German course. It's like past tense in English.

So my homework is to handwrite a short paragraph in German telling my husband what I do every day when he's away and send him a snapshot of my paragraph. My husband said if I write well he'll buy me a small gift, but there's no punishment no matter how my writing looks like as long as I've put in the effort to write.

This is the one for today. Very childish?

Enjoy reading --- if you can understand German.

Please don't punish me if I've made mistakes. I've just learnt the language for three months :)

home alone

My husband is going on business trip for a few days. I'm home alone.

Before he left home he had said "Be a good girl when I'm not around" and kissed me.

I said I will.

I have another exam coming up this Thurs anyway.

My husband has already made it clear the reward for getting a good score :)

And the punishment for getting a low score is also clear. It is not spanking but something even more horrifying: I will not be allowed to leave home for four Saturdays but stay home studying 6 hours a day with an experienced, well-qualified tutor from our church which encourages CDD. If I do not follow him well, my husband will let him hit my palm with a wooden ruler whenever he finds necessary :( And I'll need to retake the exam and pass it with a good score.

Actually I used to be quite good at taking exams when I was still in school, but I think I'd better to listen to my husband and study a lot before Thursday :)

It doesn't matter if I don't get the carrot, but I definitely don't want the stick.

fun on the beach

Got the last level of CFA done.

My husband suggested that I had this morning off and we went to the beach. Just for a walk and a nice brunch.

After the brunch we were strolling on the beach, I said I don't want to walk. Then this sweet man cuddled me and let me cling over his shoulders and waist like a baby koala :)

Then he got a bit tired said I should walk. I kissed him and said I like YOU carry me. I feel safe in your arms. And he looked very satisfied and tried to carry me over his shoulder.

It's fun to look at the beach and the sky from this angle. I giggled and told him I was drowning in his love.

Guess what my husband did?

"Wake up!", he said. 

And he smacked my bottom a few times as he said that.

I said "I'm not scared" and turned around to make a face at him.

Then he put me down and started tickling me.

So childish huh? :P Maybe sometimes we just have to forget who we are and how old we are and just have some fun.

We do loads of fun stuffs when I'm a good girl :)

what? im turning 30?

My husband has arranged a two-week trip to celebrate my birthday later this month. We often just have dinner or go on a one-day trip.

"Because it's a special year", he said.

"What's special this year? Got spanked twice as much by you?", I said.

Then he told me I'm 30 soon.

What!?

I just feel not too long ago I was still listening to Britney Spears' "I'm not a girl not yet a woman"

One day I was driving to school like I was 17 I heard it on the radio, and it described exactly how I felt... 12 years already? WOW!

I look into the mirror but I still look very much the same. I haven't put on much weight. I don't have wrinkles or something even when I smile. I still have good memory and pick things up quickly.

I'm still shocked.

Totally shocked.

30.

5 most feared spanking tools my husband has used

In these six years, we have learnt a lot and changed a lot to make our marriage work.

This change is also with the tools my husband has used to punish me when I'm not a good girl. I've just finished my CFA exam. Just hope I won't fail and get punished by any of these.

Below are the five tools that I fear the most.

#5 Hand

My husband first used an open hand but now it's always closed hand. He surely knows how to control the rhythm and made me feel very sorry.


#4 Wooden ruler

The longer it is, the more it hurts.

And it's scary to have the punishment right in front of me.

I had it a few times on my hand in my first year of marriage. Now I don't make those kind of careless mistakes but I still remember how it felt when my husband said "Hold out your hand. Palm upwards! Fingers together! Raise that hand higher!".



#3 IKEA plastic hanger

It's almost as painful as a wooden ruler, but it's used on my butt. The scariest thing is the very dramatic sound it produces. I know a strap can be a lot worse but fortunately my husband has never used them.


#2 school paddle

My husband used it two times on me, for two serious offenses. Each time he gave me 10 spanks on my bottom. It always left horrible marks on my butt for a day or two like these:

And I couldn't sit for at least a day and had to sleep on my front.


#1 canes

One flick of the cane is enough to stop almost any misbehavior immediately.

Once I threw away the nursery cane at home because I didn't want to be caned. When my husband asked me where it was, I said I had no idea, and I never touched it. The next day he found out I lied to him and got home with two nursery canes.

He put the two canes together with a rubber band and hit my bare bottom. The first stroke stung sooooooooo much that I jumped up from the floor and covered my butt with my hands by reflex and cried with shock.

I never needed the second stroke.


I know there are other implements that hurt more, like tawse, which my dad got spanked with in his boarding school in Scotland when he was a teen, or some thicker canes. My husband said he's not there to "beat the s*** out of me" but just want me to be a good girl.

how I met my husband

2007.6.3

I just finished my finals and turned in all my assignments. I went to a meeting where I met a guest speaker who also went to my university, a few years ago.

This guest speaker later became my friend, then my bf, and finally my husband.

My husband said he first saw me in this corridor.

I don't remember seeing him there, but he said I smiled at him and it melted his heart.

When we first started seeing each other, I noticed that sometimes he liked saying "listen..." to get my attention. Sometimes when I did something cheeky he kidded and said I needed to be punished. Sometimes he gave me one light smack on my bottom over my clothes.



Little did I know I would be given real punishment two years later.

I do not remember exactly why I was punished, but I cannot forget how shocked I was when he said he was going to spank me and asked me to lean across his knee. He spanked me on my bare bottom with his hand for 10 times and told me to stay in the corner of the room for 5 minutes like a poor two-year-old in the naughty corner when I was actually 20.

The beginning was a bit like Grey and Ana in Fifty Shades, except that my husband and I went to the same university, and I was always his friend / gf never a submissive before becoming his wife.

Ten years have passed after we first. Six years since we got married. Have I become a better wife? :)

carrot or stick

In less than 24 hours I'll be taking my CFA exam.

My husband said if I pass, we'll go to a special vacation in Dec. I can make one wish, and he'll make it come true :)

The passing rate in these few years is just around 50%.

If I don't pass, I'll literally get the stick :(

Please wish me luck.

doing what im told is not good enough?

Last day of my business trip. Finally time to go home. Not to relax but just to allow some time to adjust to the time difference.

Then CFA exam on June 3.

Then a language exam next week.

Then a very important work presentation the following week.

My husband said he understands I'm under a lot of stress, but it's important to get a lot of exposure at work and increase my knowledge in my own field while I'm still young. There are different possibilities ahead of me, and it's up to me whether to keep exploring and exceed other people's expectations and eventually find my unique "position" in this field in my 30s, 40s and 50s, or just do what I'm told and head for a dead end very soon.

Me: but you like me to do what I'm told :P
Hubby: that's only the minimum requirement. You don't only want a D, do you?
Me: it depends on what it takes to get an A
Hubby: true, so sometimes you only need to do what you're told, if you're dealing with something more important at the same time
Me: then why did you spank me for not doing something well when I was dealing with a million other things at the same time?
Hubby: because you didnt even meet the minimum requirement
Me:...
Hubby: not getting up for work, not getting the basic protection when you do sports... Don't you think you deserved the spanking?
Me: yes :(

I'll learn to be a good girl. Um...
I'll learn to be a good girl who not only does what she's told but also keeps exceeding others' expectations while behaving myself :)