emotional blackmail?

I often feel a bit scared before being punished by my husband, especially before he raises his cane at me.

Is it christian discipline or manipulation? Somtimes it's hard to tell.

Most of the time he lets me discuss or even argue with him with logical reasoning, but sometimes he just pulls down my pants and spanks me, when we're at home.

I'm surprised my husband got me this book today.

He said he's been spanking me a lot these two months so he wants me to think it through with this book and discuss with him.

But the ironic thing is that, he has just given me two smacks on my butt with his open hand for using my phone and reading the book when lying on the bed.