New Year’s resolutions

I’m still fine. The last two weeks my husband and I tried very hard to work out CDD at home and I got a sound hand spanking as a result :(

In the end we have agreed that we should ditch CDD, and our New Year’s resolution is learning to love and forgive each other. We are planning to have a baby in a few years’ time and think it’s important to change our mindset so that our future kids won’t be subjected to any form of violence no matter what happens.

Hubby got a promotion, and we are moving again 6 months later. Back to my home this time!!! Switzerland 🇨🇭😁

I’m still fine

Obviously my parents are worrying a lot about me every since they have found out about this blog. They know I’m living a comfortable life but we just never talked about this domestic discipline thing.

They said they want me to know they love me a lot and I am always protected by them no matter what. They said they respect my freedom and my choice but still suggested me to see a psychiatrist. No harm getting the second opinion right? A psychiatrist not a counsellor, just cos I don’t think I can come up with a solution with a counsellor’s guiding questions in this case.  I need direct advice.

No depression no syndrome no anything —- as expected. It’s actually good to look at what I have been experiencing in my marriage from a different perspective.

Actually I don’t mind being prescribed some rules and given a lot of guidance sometimes, especially if the ideas are way better than mine, but maybe my husband and I should look at the consequence part again.

Does he always need to put me across his knee?
Does he really think I wouldn’t listen unless he takes out the nursery cane?
Does he have the right to decide what is right or wrong for me?
What if he’s doing something wrong himself?

Lots of questions. But it’s good that we’re working on these issues —- bit by bit.

Takes time for both of us to learn and change for our own good.

two parallel worlds

I have an interesting job. I don’t need to work around the clock. I don’t even need to arrive at my office at a fixed time but I have a fixed salary. I have lots of respect from others when I work. Many people think I have a good job that lets me shine. 

At home I don’t need to shine. I’m like a little flower under a big tree. I never have to worry about anything. Since I don’t have kids, I can do most of the things I used to do when I was much younger. The only thing is, sometimes I get punished when I cross the line. Maybe this is the only difference between my life inside and outside home. Well, there are rules and regulations i need to observe at work of course, but most of the time there’s a lot of flexibility. At home I have freedom and flexibility too, but  sometimes it’s hard to tell exactly how much flexibility I have. 

I live in two parallel worlds, as in the movie Inception. 

Eight years into our marriage now. 

Maybe it’s love that keeps us together. Maybe it’s love that helps me live in two seemingly different worlds. 

Do you spank the one you love?

Do you require obedience in order to love?

Do you punish to show your love and care?

Hmmmm I’ve started thinking about these. Cos of the questions Daisy asked me, and the fact that my parents has found out about this blog and started to worry about me. 

Spanked cos of python

Hubby gave me some suggestions on programming language a few months ago. He said Python is better than R or SQL, particularly the processing speed.

So I started taking a course on Python last month. Today I need to hand in an assignment, but I had totally forgotten about it (!) —- until my husband asked me about it last night.

This assignment makes up 50% of the course. If I don’t turn it in, I’ll fail the course for sure. But I only had a small part of it done. Like 30%.

I need to pass this course so I decided to sit up the whole night to get my assignment done.

Hubby didn’t give me a big spanking. He only gave me one firm spank over my pants with his hand and said “go go go!”, then I went into the study.

After 7 hours at around 6am, I got my assignment done. I was exhausted.

Then I went to our bedroom to sleep. I didn’t have any energy to worry about spanking, even though my husband said he’ll deal with me later.

6 hours later, I got up and my husband said we have breakfast, and he’ll deal with me after that :(

I didn’t eat a lot. I was still a bit tired —- and nervous, cos of what was going to happen to me.

After breakfast, I begged my hubby not to spsnk with an implement :( I was still very tired 😴 and my body needed to recover. I was not saying I didn’t deserve it but my body was not ready for something really vigorous.

Hubby agreed. One second later I was across his knee.

I was told to pull down my pants and panties. Then he pulled my ear and asked me why he was doing this :(

Without any warmup the spanking started right away. 30 sound spanks 😢 I cried :(

Then I was told to brush my teeth and sent to bed.

What a way to start my Saturday :(

Hubby got me to use an electronic schedule with alerts instead of my old school hard copy schedule. He said if I forget an appointment again I’ll be spanked with a rubber slipper on my bare bottom. Sounds painful 😖

I need to be spanked for not doing homework

Been sitting in the living room for hours. I’m supposed to be doing a data analytics assignment but I find myself reading a photography book and an autobiography.

Hubby came and asked about my progress.

“Is no progress a kind of progress?” I replied.

“What do you expect me to say?” He asked.

“You’d say ‘you needto be spanked?’” I answered.

“Well, you get what you want”, hubby said.

Nooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!

As he came closer, my heart was beating faster and faster 😳 Why would I have said that?

Turned out he smiled at me and held my hand and took me to the kitchen and made a cup of lavender tea for me. Then we had some nice chocolates. .

After that I started to have some ideas about how to build a business model for the case I’m assigned to.

Thanks hubby ❤️

Warning spanking

I love walking at home with bare feet ❤️

Hmmm even when I go to the garage. You know, it’s convenient.

Hubby said it’s 4 degrees outside and I should have my shoes on. Otherwise I’ll catch a cold again.

Okay 🤐

The next time I did have my shoes on.

Just now. I forgot :( and got caught... and couldn’t get away with it :(

How many times do I have to tell you?  Hubby asked.

Spank!

His hand landed on my bottom :(

It hurt.

Then hubby pulled down my panties (!)

20 more spanks followed :(

After I had counted to 20, I was allowed to pull my panties up.

Then suddenly, spank!

Go find your slippers now. Hubby demanded.

my English :(

hubby said my English is bad :(

He read my post yesterday and said I made many mistakes. One of them is “he directed the question back to me”. Should be “back at me”, he said.

I actually studied five years in a boarding school in England till I was almost 16. I have also grown up living in 6 other countries.

Hmm... I don’t know what kind of English I speak. It’s a mixture of everything I have been exposed to. Test results show that I’m at the C2 level, an equivalence to near-native proficiency.

If I make lots of minor mistakes it’s just cos I’m not a native English speaker like my hubby. I speak so many languages, so it’s easy to mix things up. I really hope he has more patience for me :(

late night again on Sat

On Sat I went to a bar with friends till 3am again.

Luckily my butt is still safe. I told my husband in the afternoon that I’ll drink till around 3. My hubby said ok, and he came pick me up at 3am :)

Not drunk. Left as he arrived. No cigarette or weed smell. I was a good girl, hubby said. 

Out of curiosity, I asked my husband what would happen if I missed his call again and made him wait for hours like last night. 

“What do you think I would do?” he directed the question back at me. 

Hmmmm... drag me out of the bar and spank my bottom really hard in the car and spank again when we’re home?

And he said I’m a stupid girl 😮 Obedient + imaginative = stupid? 🤪

consequence of a late night

had dinner with friends tonight. I told my husband I’ll be home around 12. Ended up drinking till 2.

At 2:30 my husband called. And I suddenly realised I forgot to call him 😨

After the call, I saw that there were 5 messsges and 1 missed call from my husband from 1 to 2am.

Omg...

What will happen to me when I’m home?

30 minutes later my friend dropped me off at my door.

2:30. My hundred has been waiting for 2 and a half hours.

Before I had the chance to say sorry, “You should have called me”, my husband said.

I probably looked very sorry and I said sorry, but I felt that something was going to happen.

He lectured me a bit. And he put me across his knee.

He said I’m just being careless tonight, so he’s going to give me 50 spanks on my bare bottom. After 30 spanks he told me to get up and stand in the corner... and pull my ears 😫 that’s one of the scariest non-spanking punishments.

My arms felt very sore after just 5 minutes, but I had no idea how long I’ll have to stand.

Another 5 minutes has passed, and every single muscle in my arm and even the joints were sore.

My husband was back. He asked if I now know how it feels having to wait and worry about when somebody is coming back.

“Yes, and can I put my arms down now?” I asked.

“No” he said.

A very direct answer.

3 minutes later he came back again and finally I could, and the spanking started again.

20 more spanks. This time he changed the position a bit, and there’s a good exposure of my bottom, which now fully sticks out.

Every spank hurt a lot 😭

Finally it was 20 spanks. No rubbing, hubby said.

My bottom is pink now :(

Re-do

by noon I finished both my proposal and my german short writing.

“I’m done!!!!!” I told my husband. He came and kissed me and said “good girl”.

Then he asked me to show him my work.

He looked at my PhD proposal and said it’s good. He then made a few suggestions about things I can think about later when I start my research.

I showed him also my handwritten German short writing. Just about 300 words, and I had to use new sentence patterns that I had learnt, like anstatt, indem, durch, sodass, infolgedessen and ohne. I wrote it very quickly cos I really wanted to go out.

My husband read it and said “rewrite Line 3-8”.

But there are only 8 lines 😮

He said he could accept work of bad quality if I tried my best, but obviously I didn’t 😢

I don’t want to re-do it. I said to my husband.

Then you stay home the whole day until you have got it done, properly. He said.

I had no choice but erased everything from Line 3 and started over.

About 30 mins later I was done.

Then my husband told me to pull down my panties and put me over his knee (!!!)

Why? 😮

He said I didn’t try my best and still made lots of mistakes.

He made me read from Line 3 over his knee and make corrections if there’s something wrong. The first and second time I made a mistake he only told me what’s wrong. The third time I made the same mistake? He’d put a small X on my homework and give me 2 spanks on my bottom, and 3Xs will earn me a good spanking over his knee.

I first got an  X cos of tenses. It’s so easy to use the wrong form of perfect tense when there’s movement. Should be “bin” but dunno why I often write “habe”.

Spank! Spank!

Then Dativ is another area I’m bad in. All plural nouns have -n following Dativ but I forgot. I should have learnt this a long time ago.  That earned me the second X.

Spank! Spank!

I didn’t want the third X or more spanking 😭

Then I made one preposition mistake.

Followed by one mistake with word order in Neben-Satz.

And two more mistakes... but my husband said it’s ok cos it’s just word choice. He leaves it to my teacher.

Still one more line till the end. I read it cautiously, as if it were from some sort of legal documents.

Thank God I made it to the end with no more mistake.

My butt was safe.

“Write more carefully next time. Especially with Dativ and Akkusativ” my husband said.

I am sure I will 😢

Then my husband pulled up my panties and pants and asked me to get changed for lunch :)

No going out

The weather is good today, but my husband has said I can’t go out till I finish writing my PhD proposal and my German homework 📚 This PhD application has been sitting on my desk for almost one full month. 

“No more procrastination”, he said, as he gave me a light spank on my bottom. 

But I still wanna go out 😫

While my husband is still sleeping, I’m already up. Let’s see if everything can be done by noon. Maybe it’s good to eat something nice and have a walk afterwards? 

spank!

i thought I’ve been a good girl.

I was holding lots of things in my arms and had to close the fridge door. Isn’t it normal just to close it with my foot?

“Bad girl”, my husband said as he saw me do that.

After I put all the stuffs onto the dining table, he walked towards me and gave me a spank on my bottom 😮 Not painful but I was totally shocked!

Procrastinating...

been procrastinating my application for a part-time doctorate degree programme. My job has been too busy, and I keep coughing since the change of seasons.

Instead of putting me over his laps, my husband put me to the bed and said I should take a break.

So I had some reference books on the side table next to our bed and read till I felt sleepy and zzz the whole Saturday afternoon.

I’m happy that my husband is not punishing me all the time. He offers good solutions and alternatives too. And he never stops me from learning and becoming a better person but helping me a lot :)

back to school

Went back to my secondary school in England as a guest speaker today. The garden, the corridors, the laboratories, the classrooms, the houses, the chapel, the swimming pool, the gym, the tennis courts, the swings and the trees...

Suddenly all my memories were back.

As if I were a teen again.

I don’t remember being punished at home at all when I was a teen. The only punishment my best friend and I got at school was a really bad one though. We had to spend one week in the laundry room after school to help the house staff fold hundreds of shirts that they had ironed —- more than the total number of shirts that I’ll fold in the rest of my life I’m sure.

skirt up panties down

my husband’s parents are visiting us and staying with us for a few days. Yesterday when I was talking to my husband in front of his parents, I used very impolite language. My husband didn’t say anything but gave me a look at that time.

When we were home, he told me to go to our room upstairs. Then he came in and lectured me :(

After that, “skirt up panties down”, he said to me.

And I got three spanks on my bottom. It was only hand spanking but it made me cry :(

Then I looked at my behind in the mirror and saw a handprint (!) No wonder it hurt so much.

Been a good girl :)

Sorry for having not updated for a while. I’m super busy with my job. Too busy that I have to suspend my studies in England.

I haven’t been updating this blog not cos I’m not allowed to go online. I have been a good girl :) no punishment the last 30 days. 

I haven’t done any homework for my german class this entire month, and I couldn’t even make it to class last week. Sooooooooo busy. 

My husband said it’s ok as long as I keep using the language in my everyday life. Stlll Basic but i can  read and write and talk to people fluently — with limited vocabulary 😁

Just to tell you all I’m okay.

naughty girl got caned

I’m supposed not given WiFi password at home and allowed only 1GB for internet use this month as a punishment.

I did something very bad :(

I stole my husband’s password and shared his network to my phone. And of course I got caught — 2 days later. To make things worse, I lied to him.

I’m still being punished but I’m even more naughty than before, so my husband said he’ll deal with me with a nursery cane :(

He grabbed me by my ear and took me to our study. Then he made me pull my pants and panties down to my ankle.

I counted the strokes one by one. 6 on my butt first... then my husband asked me to count to 6 again but he doubled the strokes, like 1 (swish, swish)... until 6 (swish, swish). That was for lying.

I was already crying but I still needed to be punished for stealing his password.

He gave me 4 strokes on my thighs.

It caused so much pain so I tried to escape from the cane. Then he grabbed my hands and made me bend over a desk.

I couldn’t escape anymore, now with my bottom sticking out.

The punishment started again. And I started counting again...

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15... a few strokes landed on my thighs.

It felt like forever. My face was full of tears and my husband finally stopped.

I rubbed my bottom and there were many parallel marks that I could feel with my hand :( The punishment also left 2 very long cane marks on my thighs.

I’m not allowed to wear my pants and panties at home until I go to bed tonight. It’s very embarrassing seeing all the cane marks on my legs and my bottom.

I’ll be a good girl :(

new form of punishment :(

Not spanking. Not copying lines. Not time-out.

Went to bed very late just cos I spent too much time on my phone. And I lied to my husband about it. He said I need to be punished :(

Luckily he said no spanking till Oct. Phew~ (sigh of relief)

He grabbed me by my hand and announced the punishment:

Flicking. I didn’t even know this word. Well, I know this word but not as a form of punishment.

😳

This time he flicked my cheeks. Once on each cheek.

It’s not done yet :( Then he flicked me a few times on my mouth. Not that painful but very scary.

My husband said if I don’t improve this week or if I lie again, he’ll give me 10 flicks on my mouth (!!!) this would be painful :(

Got punished

hubby found out I have spent a lot of time on fb, instagram, snapchat and YouTube but no time to get my german homework done.

he just pulled down my panties and spanked my bottom with his hand this morning.

50 times :(

Very sore bottom :(

Then I managed to finish my homework around lunch today.

The other punishment is, I will only have 1GB data per month from today :( until my husband says I can have unlimited data again.

writing punishment

I have passed my german B1 exam. By the law I can apply for permanent stay in Germany cos my husband has dual nationality including German but with my own passport I can work and stay here without having to apply for anything too. My husband is very happy that i have passed but he said it might be a good idea to keep taking German lessons once a week.

But really too busy these days. Last lesson I didn’t have time to do my writing assignment. This week I have no time either. I don’t mean I really have all 24 hours full but my job is just too busy now.

My husband didn’t spank but made me write.

He put ten“warum?” (Why) on the paper. What i had to do was to write in German why I’m not doing my homework. Then answer the next why and write about why I don’t have time, and so on, until I have answered all ten warum.

He said he learnt about this technique for problem solving from his MBA course many years ago.

Okay. It seems to work better than just spanking in this case.

After reading my answers, my husband said it is better for me to relax first and don’t overload myself with too much work.

what will happen to me? 😢

When I was trying to take a glass last night, I broke my husband’s favourite glass 😱 it comes in a pair. Now there’s only one left.

Cos I screamed when it happened, my husband rushed to the kitchen.

He saw the shattered glass on the floor.

Before he started saying anything, I said sorry to him.

He ignored my apology and asked if I was okay and checked whether I got injured.

He asked me to go to the living room and he dealt with the broken glass.

It’s his favourite glass. I felt really guilty.

My heart was racing as my husband got out of the kitchen and walked towards me.

Me: do you want to spank me? 😢

Hubby: no, it was an accident

Me: but I feel bad

Hubby: we can get a new one

Me: I still feel bad

Hubby: what do you want?

Me: I dunno

Then he suddenly pulled down my pants and panties...

Me: noooooooooooooooooo

And he poked my nose and pulled up my pants 😮

Ok. I’ll be more careful next time :)

Grace period over soon

my husband said no spanking for me except for things related to my homework in language school these 6 months. Now 3 months have passed.

Next Monday my intensive language course will be over and I will be back to work.

My husband said in order to help me get used to discipline later, from next week if I behave badly he’ll give me an X. If I get 2Xs I’ll stand in front of the wall for 5 minutes. If I get 3Xs I’ll stand in front of the wall pulling my ears for 5 minutes :(

He said he doesn’t want to punish me but let’s see how well I behave.

It’s not easy to be a good girl all the time :/

“Do I make myself clear?”

On fri my german teacher assigned a lot of homework again.

my husband said I should get my german homework done on Sat cos we’re going to France on Sun for an event.

On Sat
12nn he asked how much I have done. Hmmm 0%
5pm he asked again. Still 0%
8pm same
10pm he lost his patience and gave me 20 sound spanks on my bottom :(

I was then told to start doing my homework immediately with my panties still pulled down.

I was told If I don’t finish my homework by 12 I’ll have a very red bottom.

“Do I make myself clear?” My husband added.

Yes. Very. And I started doing my homework right away.

It’s done now :)

no movie until I finish homework

really want to watch a French movie, but my teacher assigned a lot of homework on Friday and it’s due tomorrow. My husband said he waits till I get it done, then we go to movies.

I tried to negotiate with my hubby. I can do it on Monday morning before class, but he said “keine Diskussion” (no discussion) :(  and gave me a light spank.

I had no choice but to get my reading and writing assignment done. Took 2 hours, cos I had to look up a lot of words.

I showed it to my husband, and he was pleased.

No spanking is needed.

Now time to for movies :) 🎥 🍿

Two weeks with the possibility of spanking

from last week I have two weeks off. It’s to prepare for my German exam. I never knew I need this language and just learnt it for fun. Now all the dots suddenly got connected.

These two weeks I have an intensive German course. 4 hours each day.

My teacher assigns lots of homework. She makes some of the homework optional and some required.

My husband said if I don’t finish the required homework each day, he’ll make an exception to our 6-month no-spanking agreement and spank my bottom with his hand.

Every day I did my homework, except yesterday.

You know what happened to me :(

5 very hard hand spanks on my bare bottom :(

It should have been 4 —- 2 on each cheek, but I stood up after the first spsnk so it started over again from 1 :(

Fun in our new place

I have started to get used to the life here with my husband. Returned to work yesterday at a branch of my company. Everything goes very well so far.

Both my husband and I are working hard to adapt to all the new things around us, so no time for me to make a mess 😉 and of course no spanking, no scolding, no quarrel, no anything. We are giving each other the space to get used to the environment here, and it seems to be working out.

to spank or not to spank?

I promised my husband that I got something done last night when he was out. It must be done by last night. But when I was about to do it, I accidentally fell asleep on the sofa.

When I woke up at 8, there’s a blanket on me.

I went into the our bedroom. My husband was awake and looked at me and said morning to me. Normal tone, but no smile. So I climbed onto the bed and sat on my hubby’s lap. He looked at me, saying nothing.

I told him I couldn’t get the thing done cos I fell asleep.

My husband said he knew it. Then he said nothing.

I simply felt too bad, maybe a bit guilty, so I lay on my front on his lap and pulled down my own pants and said sorry :(

And I closed my eyes, waiting for the penny to drop 😣

The worst is he pulls down also my panties and makes me stick out my bottom more so the spanking is more effective. Or he tells me to bend over the bed and go fetch a paddle or a nursery cane.

It’s my bad.

Suddenly I felt something on my bottom.

It was my pants.

My husband pulled up my pants and said “You were too tired. Come and get more sleep. We will find an alternative” ❤️

Warning

My husband never suddenly spanks me. He always talks to me first, and maybe give a warning. Sometimes he does that without saying a word. Sometimes with a simple, direct message. 

Arranged by levels of severity:

1. Call my name with a stern voice 

“Jenny!!!”

2. Give me a look

3. Point at me with his index finger

4. Give me a light smack on my wrist

5. Put an IKEA plastic flat hanger / a nursery cane on the table

6. Ask a question 

“Do you want your panties to be pulled down?”

7. Pull down my panties and ask whether I still want to sit comfortably 

8. Pull one of my ears lightly

9. Twist one of my ears 

10. Twist one of my ears and drag me to a corner by pulling my ear

The most common ones? 1, 2, 6, 7, 8

How about you?

Homework

We don’t have maintenance spanking. Only when I’m a bad girl I get spanked.

Like I said in my last post, my husband and me will move to another country for three years. He won’t spank me in the first six months so that I have the space to learn and adapt to my new life. Today he made a suggestion:

I keep a diary every day after the move for the first six months. Based on our trust on each other, matter what mistakes I make I won’t be punished. I only need to write about it honestly. And my husband will only check if I have made a diary entry every day without reading what I write.

My husband called it “Starbucks Approach”, because this is how Starbucks manages their staff. The staff can make mistakes like breaking a mug and simply write about it. They can also put down interesting things like a customer’s tea preference. In this way the staff has an awareness of what he’s doing.

So this will start in June. Half the month to go, but if I’m a bad girl by mid-June I’ll still be spanked.

Moving

We are moving to another country for three years because of my husband’s job. Luckily I can get relocated and work in a branch of my current company in the same city. Because of the move, all the canes, paddles, etc will be thrown away.

Can we not get new ones?

 I asked my husband.

If you are a good girl.

He said.

The first six months I will be given a lot of time to get used to the change of environment. No spanking only discussions.

What happens after six months?

New cane at home. A well spanked bottom. Tram lines on a pink bottom. Can’t sit on my bottom.

Hopefully none of these will happen.

Interesting German expression

In German there is this expression “dürfen”, which can be literally translated as “is allowed to”. I find it interesting cos when I ask my husband if i can do something / if it is a good idea to do something...

In English, I only say “Can I...?”

But in German, when I said “Kann ich...?”, my husband always said I should say “darf ich...?” (Am i allowed to...?)

I know in German können (can) only refers to somebody’s ability to do something, whereas dürfen is about asking for permission.

But still...

Whenever I have to say “darf ich...?” (Am I allowed to...?”),  I really feel that the other person I am talking to has an authority to decide on something related to me.

My feeling might be wrong but right now with my B1 German Level it really feels this way.

Pink bottom on the beach (2)

With my freshly spanked pink bottom, I walked for 3 minutes. Luckily there were not many people on our way back. Only 5 people in total. 3 were far away from us. 2 very close, and one of the girls raised her eyebrows when she saw my behind :(

I tried not to make eye contact with her. Like an ostrich :(

After they had passed, my husband asked me how it felt that everyone knows I’m a naughty girl :(

I blushed and said nothing.

Then we walked 1 minute more. As we were opposite to the hotel, I felt very nervous. Is everyone going to see my pink butt? Should I try to cover it with my hands or not? What should I do? :(

At that moment my husband held me in his arms and walked through the hotel lobby so that no one can see my spanked bottom. He kept walking for what felt like almost two minutes.

I felt love when he carried me 💕 so when he put me down on the bed in our hotel villa, I had my arms around his neck and kissed him and... ❤️

Pink bottom on the beach

My husband took me to an island for vacation. On the second last day I did something very naughty on the beach, and I got spanked :(

I was wearing thong bikini so there was no need to pull down my pants.

It was a private beach, and there was no one but us.

My husband kept spanking me for minutes. I don’t know how many spanks it was but it must be hundreds. It must be very pink.

Then my husband wanted to bring me back to our hotel villa, which meant walking a few minutes with my freshly spanked pink bottom 😢

Everyone could see it 🍑 😭

I’ll tell you what happened next.

Top 3 creative punishments

Punishments tend to become less effective when they are used repeatedly. My husband is very creative when it comes to punishing me 😰 so he never has this problem.

#3 Open your mouth
Once I said something a bit impolite (not that serious), and my husband told me to open my mouth for one minute.

It wasn’t painful but it did make me feel that I was punished :(

#2  You want to do it? Do it again
I’m not allowed to throw things cos of my mood. Once I did it, then my husband let me calm down. We talked for a while.

Afterwards I got punished :( my husband punished me to throw and pick up that thing for 50 times.

After the 50th time, I picked up the object. My husband asked, “do you still want to throw things?”

No 😢

#1  Choose your own combination
Most of the time I don’t have a choice of the implement, but when I do, I can normally decide
- which implement
- where I’m spanked
- what position I keep

For example:
1. Hand, bottom, OTK
2. Nursery cane, bottom, standing

But my husband can decide if it’s on bare bottom or clothed bottom, and whether another punishment is needed.

Lack of sports

I have been too busy with my job. No time for sports. Then I have a cold again this morning.

My husband made me a cup of ginger tea with lemon and some honey 🍯

He said I need to do some sports. He always said that.

This time he seems to be taking it very seriously 😐  Looks like I’ll be required to do sports at least two times a week.

Hmmmmmm I’ll try, but let me zzz and get over my cold first.

I’m too tired and sick to listen to any explanation about the importance of doing sports or what happens if I don’t do sports, etc. As I said this to my husband, he held me in his arms and took me to the bed. Then he pinched my cheeks and said “naughty girl” :(

I’m not sure if I’m naughty. I just caught a cold. I thought to myself.

But of course I didn’t say anything 🤐

Who is this?

I did something naughty yesterday. Not very serious, but my husband took me to the study and lectured me :(

“do you remember what happened last time you did it?”

My husband said that as he showed me a picture.

😨

No further explanation is needed. 

No wonder they say “a picture is worth more than a thousand words”. 

No more rollercoaster ride

there’s an old song called “life is a roller coaster”. It’s just like my life. I had a blissful childhood and teenage years, until one day my dad’s business failed. Then I still magically made it to a prestigious uni with scholarship in the US  as an international student. In my college year I got to know my husband, who was then a guest speaker in one of the talks, organised by me.

As we got to know more about each other, we became very interested in each other.

That’s how it all began.

These days I feel blessed that I live a comfortable life again. I have my own job. I have my own time. I have my own family.

No more roller coaster ride but love and protection... and some spanking when I become very naughty :P

super strict “teacher”

Recently I have been learning the German past tense. Different from perfect tense, past tense requires  a lot of rote learning.

After one week, I can only remember two:
Say: sagen > sah
Think: denken > dachte

My husband was studying with me this morning. He said I smiled and laughed too much and didn’t focus that well.

Whenever I made a mistake I found it funny, cos there were only 40 words on the list. I kept reciting but kept forgetting.

My hubby pretended that he was angry (but he was smiling) and said he would put me across his knee (!)

He made me repeat the 40 words in 5 groups with him. Each group I repeated after him. Then he tested me. If I got it wrong, he made me repeat after him. Then he tested me again.

The second time if I got it wrong again, he smacked my bottom over my pants, lightly.

Then he sent me to a corner for 3 mins.

3 mins later, I went over his knee and got tested again. If I made mistake for the third time, he took off my pants and panties and smacked my bare bottom once. Then he gave me a hint. If I was still wrong, there came two more smacks. And he gave me the correct form.

Towards the end, I got tested again for words I got wrong before.

Before this final test, I was given 5 mins to study in front of the wall. My hubby put a nursery cane next to me and said i would get one stroke for each wrong answer, until I was it right :(

Guess what I got in the end?

No spanking at all? :)

Well, no :(

Result:
5 light spanks over my pants
3 heavy spanks on my bare bottom


And...

almost got caned once

But...

luckily I got it correct in the end and didn’t get caned ;)

Now I remember the whole list with the help of a strict “teacher” :O

It’s kind of new to me cos physical punishment was banned when I was in school. Hmmmmm it was effective on me this time but strange feelings.

Arm pillow

Very busy with work these days. A bit stressed. I keep waking up at 4:30 or 5:00 these few days :( I try not to wake my hubby up when I left the room to get a glass of water.

Last night when I tried to go back to sleep my husband looked at me with sleepy eyes.

Oh did I wake you up?

He didn’t answer but just smiled at me.

Oh I’m sorry.

That’s ok, he said to me.

Then he let me sleep on his arm 😴 💕

And I slept very well the next two hours :)

Just now my husband said he has his arm pillow ready for me, so good night :)

If I lie again...

I lied once to my husband last week and he found out that. Luckily he gave me a chance. No punishment this time.

Next time if he finds out I lie to him again, what do you think will happen to me?

Spanking?

No.

Even worse.

He said he would make me stay home on a Sat or Sun and keep quiet for one day.

How?

He would pop a pacifier in my mouth 👄 I will not be allowed to take it out without his permission. Even for lunch or dinner I need to wait for my husband to take it out of my mouth in order to eat. After meals? I’ll have to brush my teeth and keep the pacifier in my mouth again.

I said to my husband “I don’t want to be a baby”.

He said if I don’t lie again I won’t need a pacifier.

Oops... got a few snacks

Nice weather these few days! I wore shorts and I went out and it felt great. The only problem was, it got a bit windy and cold at night.

When I was home I started sneezing. My husband said I shouldn’t make myself sick again. I have just recovered from my cold.

Then he told me to go over to where he’s sitting, and he suddenly took off my pants. Over my panties he gave me three light smacks :(

“Bad girl”, he said as he pulled one of my ears :(  And he told me to get changed immediately.

gentle, caring hubby

I caught a bad cold with fever (so complicated) and stayed in bed for many days. My husband didn’t want to know why I was sick but simply took good care of me.

He made me lunch and dinner. He got some fruits for me in the morning. Sometimes I didn’t have any appetite because of my cold and he said it’s ok and simply put the unfinished food in the fridge. Sometimes I woke up in the middle of the night because of my fever and he got up to get a ice bag and put it on my forehead.

Hubby said he’s missing his naughty wife 😆❤️

Not so naughty?

My husband decided to take away my pants and panties when we are at home and give them back to me only when I’m good. What happened in the end?

On Sunday I was a good girl, so...

Mon: I was allowed to wear my panties
Tue: got my pants back as well
Wed: managed to keep my pants
Thu: still had my pants on
Fri: don’t know yet. Let’s see what happens tonight :)

I have just passed my A2 German exam with 93%. My husband said if I’m a good girl today he’ll take me to a short trip in a very special place this weekend :)

Me: ich freue mich sehr auf das!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (I look sooooooo forward to it)
Hubby: only if you are a good girl
Me: yeah I am!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hubby: shhhhhhhh you’re so loud

Oops...

But I’m still a good girl :)

What happens to a naughty girl?

I did something wrong three times this month. The same thing.

The first time I was forgiven.

The second time my husband took me across his knee and gave me 10 hand spanks and made me stand in the corner with my bare bottom for 10 mins.

Then, the third time today.

My husband made me stay in a room and gave me one hour to analyze the problem and tell him the root cause and provide some solutions.

One hour later, he accepted my analysis and proposal, but it was not the end of the story.

There was punishment.

Don’t spank me :( I said.

So my husband gave me two choices:
1. Pull my own ears with my arms raised so that they are 90 degrees with my body. Keep this for 20 mins.

If you think this sounds easy, try it for 15 mins and you’ll change your mind.

2. Take the spanking. I am allowed to choose the implement.

Which option would you go for if you were me?







I picked Option 2.

I chose a wooden ruler.

I thought my husband would give me a few spanks on my hand but he didn’t.

He told me to bend over. I was thinking like “maybe I should have chosen his palm” but it was too late.

No warm up. He just took off my pants and my panties and hit very hard right away.

I don’t know how many spanks I got but my butt was very pink all over.

My husband said the spanking was  just 2 minutes but it felt like forever to me.

For the next seven days I will need to work my plan. My husband has taken away my pants and panties. If I am a good girl today, I will be allowed to wear my panties at home tomorrow. If I am a good girl for two days in a row, I will get also my pants to wear at home.

A strong reminder to a naughty girl.

Wearing no pants no panties actually is merely one step away from the next spanking :(

When I don’t want to get up

It is hard to get up in the morning, especially on Sunday. I was laying in bed for over two hours and my husband came in and pinched my cheeks and said “naughty girl”. 

I said “you can’t make me get up”. 

The moment after I had said that, I started to regret. 

My husband lifted my blanket. 

I tried to lie on my bed. 

He turned me over and lifted my night dress. 

And he gave me one spank. 

Then I sat up straight and I pretended that the spank hurt a lot. My husband then held me in his arms and took me to the bathroom. We took a shower together :)

One of the best ways to start a Sunday morning. 

I’m a good girl :)

Just finished my mid-term exam yesterday. It was the first time I flew to another country just to take an exam. My husband saw how much I studied and I think I did the exam quite well.

The result won’t be out till two weeks later, but my husband already took me to a nice place for fine dining :)

I had been very busy with my studies and had no time to do anything naughty :P

Warned and spanked

I keep forgetting to do something. Then my husband asked if I want to be warned like Anna.

Anna rolled  her eyes at Christian and he said if she does that again he’ll take her over his knee. A clip from my husband:

But what happened to her?

Out of curiosity I got thr clip:

She was lucky she only got 3 hand spanks. My husband would have spanked till my bottom turned pink and hot :(

Got spanked after movies

My husband and I have decided earlier this week that we do not want kids for the next three years, so some of the punishment is back —- if I misbehave.

Last night we watched Fifty Shades Freed. On our way to the car I just walked in the snow not wearing my coat. My husband said I should, but it was such a short distance.

We got in the car and I started sneezing a lot.

Then my husband said I must have forgotten spanking is back in place (!)

When we arrived home and got out of the car, I already put my jacket on.

But it was obviously too late. I sneezed again.

When we were home my husband made a cup of hot ginger lemon for me. He made it with real ginger and fresh lemon slices and added a bit of honey. He said it’s to give me some vitamin C.

He then gave me a zinc tablet, which can relieve  cold symptoms.

I knew he was going to spank me after that, so I drank very, very slowly.

He waited till I finished and carried me over his shoulder. All of a sudden, “spank!”. He kept spanking as he walked me to our bedroom.

Ten spanks over my panties this time, but it stung a lot because I had not been spanked for a few months already.

Strange Japanese Game

I lived in Japan for some time when I was a kid because of my dad’s job. There I went to a public school for a short time and learnt to speak Japanese. At that time physical punishment was already banned but I remember I once played a very stupid game with my classmates when I went to play at their home.

It’s really crazy. First it’s Paper Scissors Stone. The one who lost had to stick her bottom out and let others smack her bottom over the skirt.

I’m surprised that we played that we played such a game  but it’s even more surprising that a minority of kids still play that game (!)

In the caption they wrote: butt smacking contest —- spank seriously

Weird? Fun? What do you think?

Face the wall punishment

I have just watched Heidi in German and found the same clip on YouTube. Since this blog is about spanking and punishment, let me write something about it.

From 56:00, Heidi got into a trouble and was told to stand facing the wall during the dinner time. No dinner for her that day.

The furious Frau said to Heidi,
„Mit dem Gesicht zur Wand habe ich gesagt” —- I said “with the face to the wall”

Luckily my husband has never said that to me.

She also said stand in front of the wall.

And something like I’ll count up to two when she struck the table and shouted at Heidi. I don’t understand the words but sometimes i think words you use in a punishment or scolding are universal.

Caning in Animations

My husband has sent me this for learning German. Ummmmm but just for learning German?

I don’t understand all the words in the animation but it seems that the girl sneaked out and her mom decided to cane her. Then she saved a little goat but she failed to complete 20 pages of writing which her brother had assigned to her to make her stay home. After that she brought along a birch for her mom to hit her, but her mom was probably impressed by her act of kindness for the animals and didn’t hit her. 

Ummmm I don’t know why my husband sent me this clip. My heart was beating really fast when I saw the caning part. 7 strokes on her butt!

New German expressions I’ve learnt include 

Strafe — punishment 

Daa Frühstück ist fertig—- the breakfast is ready

Weh —- painful

Strafe genug — enough punishment 

Strafe für mich —- punishment for me 

Was solle ich noch tun? — what can I still do?

Hast du nicht gehört, dass... —- have you not heard that...?

Hinter — behind (when she talked about her bottom)

Abschreiben—- Write up

Geschwollen— swollen

Du bist auf meine Seite —— you are on my side 

Etwas sag doch du — say something!

Steh hier auf den Stule, lieg die Hände auf den Tisch —- stand here on the stool and put your hands on the table (!!!)

And she did, sticking out her bottom (!)

Then the moment came :(

New semester starts

My new semester has started so I’m in England this Fri and Sat again. It’s a bit weird to be a student again, cos I do look like a student when I dress casually and I feel that I’m treated like a student.

It’s not a bad experience, and it makes me feel very young again.

It’s the best time of my life now.

Today a professor from one of my courses said, after listening to my short presentation, that I should think about pursuing a career in the field I presented today.

I thanked him for his encouragement and told him I’ve been working in that field for seven years already. I hope I didn’t surprise him. I did try to be polite.

Anyway my husband said I have been a good girl and so he has upgraded my flight back home :)

Maybe we shouldn’t have kids?

My husband and I have stopped CDD and any kind of punishment on me because we want to have kids, and we want to raise our kids in an environment free of spanking. We have agreed that we need to change our mindset, otherwise when our kids in the future behave badly we might use physical punishment on them. We definitely don’t want this to happen.

This is one month after we stopped CDD and punishment.

I live a very free and independent life. I have no behavioural problem. I still leave things till the last minute but always manage to get things done by the deadline. Yet I don’t know if it’s good.

We still love each other but it feels very different now.

The role of my husband is less important in my life now. I’m not sure if this will affect our marriage. Well, I don’t mean I want to be spanked but maybe cos we started CDD once we got married, I’m not used to not having to listening to him all the time.

I’m wondering if we should do what we used to do before and practice CDD and forget about having kids.

My very strict German teacher

After my husband stopped spanking and scolding me, my German teacher has become the “strictest” person I face.

I’m used to a very relaxed and free learning classroom environment since I was little. There I can express my opinions freely and the whole class chats a lot together even during the lessons.

It’s not the case in my German class.

“Jenny!”

“Kein Small-talk”

“Schhhhhhh...”

My German teacher didn’t tell me off, but I got “warned” a lot :( like “Jenny! Schhhhhhh...”

Will you dislike me because we’re not practicing CDD anymore?

My husband and I decided to stop practicing CDD and any form of punishment on me last month.

Since then I had procrastinated a few times and didn’t work on the tasks until the last minute, but I still managed to make the deadline. So far our spanking-free life has been good.

After all we are making this change for our kids in the future. We want to get into the mindset that it’s okay for our children to make mistakes and learn from the mistakes without the threat of physical punishment. And my role as a mom is a role of a mature adult so I can’t be a little girl that’s “parented” and regularly disciplined by my husband. The role of my husband, on the other hand, supports the family with me. He’s not a disciplinarian but a decisive, loving parent. This is our vision of a family.

Initially when I started this blog I wrote about the punishment I got from my husband. I think it’s okay for a couple. But when we started thinking about having kids, we thought twice and had lots of discussions and decided that we want a loving, supportive home without spanking for our future kids.

I hope you won’t dislike me because of this change of roles.

When my husband and I first got married, I was very young. We followed what his church suggested about CDD and started to be disciplined. I got spanked a lot on my bare bottom by his hand and over my pants with a ruler in our first year of marriage. As years went by, it became about once a month or a few times a year. Then last year I was spanked a lot and even caned with  a nursery cane many times because of my bad behaviour caused by my graduate school studies, a very busy job, a lack of time for leisure  and so on. At one point even my husband thought we should think again about how to make a loving couple.

In the end we wanted to see if we can still live our life normally without any form of punishment. We wanted to learn how to love each other without any condition and respect each other as an adult.

We have to change our beliefs for our kids in the future, and it takes time for us to learn, adapt and change.

Please wish me luck.

Woke up and found my pants being taken down

As the caption shows, that’s what happened to me this morning. Weird.

I looked at my husband and asked if he wanted to spank me again.

No, it’s you who took down your own pants. He told me.

What?

Ok, now I seem to remember. I had a strange dream, in which I was punished, like what we used to have before the last Christmas.

And what was my husband’s next reaction?

Can you guess?
A. “So you really want to be spanked? I can make you feel very sorry”
B. “Don’t be silly”
C. Said nothing






The answer is C, and he gave me a hug. I guess he can easily do what’s said in A, but we really are trying very hard to prepare ourselves to become good, loving parents in the future.

Dealing with procrastination with strategies

It’s hard to bring myself to start working on a job assignment. I have been quite unproductive these days.

I told my husband my problem.

He said if this happened in 2017, he’d fetch the cane and I’ll have a very sore behind, and I’ll start working right away with my pants taken down, and I get more spanking if I get distracted again. But we’ve agreed to change our way of thinking...

He suggested that I
Break down the job into a few parts and do it bit by bit by focusing on one thing at a time so I don’t get distracted. Make a plan and take a short break after getting each part properly done.

My husband said I shouldn’t tell him how I’m going to do it. I need to decide on my own.

2017: immediate punishment
2018: Problem-based strategies

Will it work?

Let’s see.

Calling my name

No punishment after our long, serious discussion at Christmas. It’s because we really want to learn to create a spanking-free environment for our future children. This won’t come overnight, and the first thing is to change the way we interact.

But you know it’s hard to change dramatically from being disciplined with nursery cane and paddle and hand spanking on bare bottom to not being disciplined—- at all.

We have adopted these two methods:
1. Keep a journal and write down whatever happens during the day. Both of us do it, and we don’t need to exchange our journals at all. Somebody called it a cognitive way to help oneself reflect and take control of his/her own life

2. When my husband thinks I’m being a bad girl he’d keep a straight face and call my name, like “Jenny!”. No consequence but just a hint. My husband said eventually we’ll get rid of this, but let’s make it a temporary measure for now.

So far they have worked.

No spanking so what’s next?

Back home from holiday.

No mood for doing anything at all. Totally holiday mood.

My husband is back to work but I’m working from home these two weeks. Then my husband came home and saw paper bags from Mc Donald’s.

Honestly I had it three times in one day. Too lazy to cook.

If this happened in 2017 I’d have a sore bottom.

Now?

Husband: Do you know this is not healthy? Don’t do it again.
Me: ok

And I just don’t do it again.

That’s all.

You might ask what if I do it again. Will he spank me.

Well, I’ll just make sure I won’t do it again. Let’s all.

Time to learn to be a responsible adult :)